My feelings and the British weather have a lot in common let me expand on this...
We had two lovely sunny days that beat some of our favorite holiday destinations current temperatures, followed by what looks like a miserable all day long drizzly and grey day. Can I add that according to my iphones weather thingy the weather will continue being depressing for the next 5 days a least.
According to my mood things are pretty dismal in my head too, hence the similarities. I don't mean to suggest that I am walking around with a long face or not wanting to get on with daily tasks this is not the situation at all. It's more like carrying an extra large camping rucksack around all day you know it's there because how do you ignore the weight? It tries to slow you down and drag you down with each step, from time to time you get to sit down and remove it but, inevitably you have to strap it back on and carry on walking.
I have an emotional camping rucksack! Is everyone else carrying one? Perhaps some lucky sods are carrying only emotional clutch bags but surely I am not alone in this.
So lets open this rucksack up and rummage through the content, shall we? Well on the top we have money worries this full to the rim at the moment because frankly everything is expensive and we can't get by without money so it takes centre stage or in this case it's right on the top of the bag for easy access. Underneath this we have the where-am-I-going-in-life compartment this section was reduced last year when we bought our flat and got married, because we suddenly had a bit of direction in life. Nonetheless, This bit has always been disproportionately large. Also, it was at this point that the extension zip had to be opened above and any space we opened up here was taken in a blink of an eye. Then we get to the messy jumbled up section of the bag where everything is all tangled up and you find all sorts of things you didn't know you carried. You'll find the where-does-my-time-go pouch with a broken zipper (it's extremely over used), a what-am-I-good-at umbrella with a few broken bits and a hole. A selection of half empty (or half full) lip balms in Nothing-motivates-me, I-can't-find-the-time, I-don't-know-where-to-start and the recent favorites which are bang on trend It's-too-late-I-wasted-too-much-time and Why-bother! Of course that leaves the scrunched up tear stained when-will-things-get-easier tissues and a few odds and sods of we'll-never-be able-to-have-kids, how-do-others-manage and I won't go on because frankly some content is best kept private. :)
P.S. What type of bay to you carry? Or better still have you found a way to get rid of the bag altogether?
P.P.S Perhaps I should make my rucksack yellow and hang little cuddly things of it to cheer me up when I see it.
P.P.P.S If you are completely lost by my rambling please ignore and don't report me to any asylum. I assure you I am harmless. :)
:) Maybe it's time to buy a new bag, it always works doesnt'it :)
ReplyDeletewell, just make the time to remove some of the heavier items on your imaginary bag, like for example, send to that secret compartment at the bottom of the bag a few things that you can't really do anything about at the moment. ( they are just weighing you down such as bills, they have to be paid, where im i am going, as long as you end up in a likeable place), bring to the top of the bag, that little space that almost doesnt let you close the zip, and when you open the bag its spills out in that place you should put things that need to be done and once you have done them you feel a kind of pleasure like ( reading, knitting, helping husband with DIY jobs, sort out bills. I know they are boring but just do one at the time.!)also i would extrongly reccomend to change the bag and hang those little things that make you smile, like those stolen kisses to your husband, or nice memories, or smells or the thought of bella even the smell of "gato mojado" that i know you like!
ReplyDeleteabout time for kids.... there is alot of time left and QUE SERA SERA.